Body Image, Body Shaming, Body Love
Good morning, all,
This is a painful yet powerful topic for me to write about. From as young as I could remember, I was obsessed with my body. I was scared not to be cute. I was frightened not to be the idealistic idea of female; doll-like, impish, perfectly dressed in female clothes, small-bodied, quiet in body, and well-mannered. I was the youngest of five in my family and the youngest female. I was also the smallest. I also wasn't the quietest. I had trauma done to me that affected my body image and my body shaming.
I found as puberty came along and family dynamics changed, my body image became even more pervasive. Acne, a menstrual period at age 9, I became heavier, I was interested in boys and didn't like the weight. I heard body-shaming comments from boys, friends, school members, family, and peers. It hurt to my very core. Today as with many issues I've dealt with, I've recognized I expected others to support me during an especially chaotic time in my life; whether it was puberty, changing schools, my parents splitting up, or just not understanding how hard it was to cope with life!
As I experienced more trauma, I developed an eating disorder; anorexia nervosa, to control the pain and to try to stop the cycle of being female, body shaming, and my own distorted body image, and this ended up almost killing me. Funny, it was a form of saving grace for my parents and me. I got counseling for my problem. My parents split up to end the family pain. They individually got help for their problem. I won't EVER say I'm "RECOVERED" from an eating disorder. I'll always say I'm recovering. I'm recognizing I can look at my body with a more realistic set of eyes. I can also not wound it by self-mutilating behaviors that were such a way of releasing "PAIN". I can also share the truth with others about my BATTLE and how I've wounded my family, friends, partners, Counselors, etc., by not being honest and being able to show up or be present with them in a relationship. Today I'm learning tools to love me and my body and triggers for unhealthy image, body shaming, and body love.
I'd love to hear from you!!!
Take a minute to love you and your body!
Laura
https://www.cci.health.wa.gov.au/~/media/CCI/Consumer-Modules/Building-Body-Acceptance/Building-Body-Acceptance---01---Understanding-Body-Dysmorphic-Disorder.pdfPresentation (joannaanastasia.com)
https://www.k-state.edu/counseling/pdffiles/Body%20Image%20Workbook.pdf
The Love Sound Box From "Spiritually Fly" by Faith Hunter
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