Spiritual Journaling

 Good morning, followers,

This part of the Spiritual Coaching reminds me so much of my early days in early Trauma Work.

Here's the questions and prompts. I'll also give you examples of my real-life answers!

1. Where am I at right now both high and low?

High: I'm at the healthiest point of understanding in my recovery that I have my own opinions, thoughts, feelings, and reactions as do others. I don't have to fix, manipulate or control in order to have a relationship.

Low: Boundaries: Recognizing I'll always have boundaries I have to set in my home and anywhere I take myself. I can detach with love and respect myself and the other person.

2. What has currently been happening in my life highs and lows?

Highs: Moving forward with changes. Replaced entire heating system in my house, putting up floating shelves, painted entire inside of house.

Lows: Weeding out what causes me pain, trauma or sucks energy out of me or my life. Don't recognize it at first. Don't trust my instinct and hold onto it for too long.

3. Where am I ready to go? Continue to move forward with porch renovation, focus on what brings me joy, quest for empowerment, and purpose, and get my needs met without sacrificing myself or harming others.

4. What has or is keeping me from that outcome.... Mindset, Energy, Body or Emotions???

Current Mindset:

I wait for others. I'm trusting professionals to meet and hear my needs. I'm in Groups with people who are on the path of shared experienced and are looking for joy, peace and spiritual purpose.

The New Mindset that Fuels Desired Outcomes or Steps to Take to Fuel This: 

I no longer need to WAIT. I set my own intention to get what I need in my life to help myself and others. This old default trust mechanism isn't working and I'm not trusting my own Intuition. I now can invite a new professional(s) to help me with my emotions and mental health needs. I am responsible for creating my own safe and healthy tribe to grow, heal, and continue to offer support to others.

Affirmative Thoughts or Conversations to Add:

It's up to me to get what I need to make my goals, dreams and visions a reality.

Listening, respecting, and honoring myself will help me to stop putting unrealistic expectations on myself and others.

5. What has or is currently stopping me in creating that outcome.... Mindset, Energy, Body, or Emotions?

Mindset? My discipline and persistence in creating my pathway to spiritual, physical, emotional, and financial recovery.

Energy? I allow positive energy to flow. When negative energy comes up against me, I recognize it's the other person(s) issue but also if they want me to continue to work with them it might be unhealthy or unsafe and I no longer internalize that negative energy.

Body? Breath work, gentle chair exercises and check-ins with my Inner Family Members.

Emotions? Where do I feel it? What do I feel? Process it. Are they triggers attached to childhood? I no longer need to be enslaved to my emotions.

Current Energy? Meditative clarity, seeing it as a healthy observer and being able to love that person and have compassion for that person, place, or thing or experience.

Current Body Sensations and Feeling? Grounding work helps, Progressive Muscle Relaxation, or Body Scan. Check-Ins are key before facing or processing triggers or goals.

New Emotions that Fuel Desired Outcomes or Steps to Take to Fuel This: Is it anxiety, grief or anger? Naming them and being able to invite my Loving Parent in and say to my Inner Child or Inner Teenager that whatever situation I'm dealing with it's not like my past. I'm not alone. The Loving Parent can give them what they need (a hug, to be heard) and also told they were never supposed to have taken on the responsibility to deal with such strong emotions they weren't emotionally equipped to handle, anxiety, grief, and betrayal. I now will be handling this through re-parenting.

6. What can I celebrate and be grateful for right now in this present moment?

I can see myself and my story in a much more hopeful light. I can be more compassionate toward myself, my parents, my family members, and friends who suffer from dysfunction, mental illness, trauma, alcoholism, work alcoholism, etc. I do have a higher purpose than to compete with anyone or perform for approval or get into in a toxic relationship or experience Imposter Syndrome, or act out in relationships, fight over politics, or religion, or stay silent or think punishment is love. I have a quiet life filled with supportive loving people seeking the same Solution.